Ur Own Light 

The word enlightenment  refers to a final blessed state with the absence of desire or suffering. That sounds great, right? Until you find out that to get to enlightenment you must go through the darkness, fight your demons and take accountability for your decisions and actions. The path to enlightenment isn’t all love and light, it takes you through your shadows into a world of destruction and rebirth. For those who decided to take the plunge, and like me, found the ride way bumpier than expected; I am sharing what I found through my journey.

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I am sharing my experience to help others find their way through spiritual awakening. When I stepped back, examined the structure of my life and decided to work through my pain, trauma, habits and a plethora of other things, I began to see that I was the reason for my suffering. This is not to say that I deserve to suffer or it’s my fault, it means the continuation of suffering is a choice I make; it is easier than working through it, to process, self-examine and correct my behavior. Even if I wanted to correct it or work through it, I had no idea how to do it. This is when I started meditating, learning about my energy fields and most importantly, realizing that the light I needed was already part of me.

 

Meditation was the first thing I worked on mastering, it was not easy, and it can take many sessions where all you do is sit in silence. I learned that I could not truly meditate by trying to silence my thoughts, the only way to quiet the mind is to allow those thoughts to run through your mind, process them and move forward. The more I meditated the quieter my mind became, and the volume of thought lowered significantly. This allowed me to get to a place of meditation where my mind was quiet and I could explore my feelings, senses, and the world around me. If you would like to get more information on meditation you can visit this site https://www.gaia.com/video/integrating-our-wholeness.

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We all have our own path, no one is better or more enlightened and we all have our issues. A spiritual journey is personal, it is yours. I cuss like a sailor sometimes and that does not make me any less worthy of enlightenment or that I am not working towards a higher state of consciousness, it means it is my path to review and correct not anyone else’s. It is not about perfection but about self-reflection to learn how to heal, protect and love yourself.